I find my mind wandering back to the same topic. I should be engaged in our day. It's just that my heart is so heavy today as some of my close extended family is going through a very hard time right now.
God is pruning and refining before our very eyes and it is painful to watch. My first instinct is to want to protect them, but there is really nothing that I can do except pray and thank God they are walking with Him through this trial.
I also thank Him for preparing ahead of all of this to remove me from the direct path of this trial, as it would have devastated my world. But at the same time, I struggle with feeling guilty because He chose to be gracious to me and so far not to them. Who can understand the ways of the LORD, yet His good.
So, what else can I do. I will wait on Him to rescue my precious family and give thanks for loving them enough to allow this pain. That is all I can do.
Psalm 3 (NLT)
A psalm of David, regarding the time David fled from his son Absalom.
1 O Lord, I have so many enemies;
so many are against me.
2 So many are saying,
“God will never rescue him!”
Interlude[a]
3 But you, O Lord, are a shield around me;
you are my glory, the one who holds my head high.
4 I cried out to the Lord,
and he answered me from his holy mountain.
Interlude
5 I lay down and slept,
yet I woke up in safety,
for the Lord was watching over me.
6 I am not afraid of ten thousand enemies
who surround me on every side.
7 Arise, O Lord!
Rescue me, my God!
Slap all my enemies in the face!
Shatter the teeth of the wicked!
8 Victory comes from you, O Lord.
May you bless your people.
Interlude
Footnotes:
a.Psalm 3:2 Hebrew Selah. The meaning of this word is uncertain, though it is probably a musical or literary term. It is rendered Interlude throughout the Psalms.